I'm pretty excited to be starting school, but mostly determined. I really want to focus on my academics and growing and that sort of stuff. There are more important things to be focusing on than the things I have been in the past months. I'm still taking into consideration moving back into grandma's but I know it won't happen. I can make it work down here. I just don't want to go back to the nagging and restriction. I'm kinda worried about stuff with Jason. You know, that I'll just back out of the relationship because I don't want it anymore because he's so far away and what's the point when I have a life going on here? Whatever happens, happens. Being open about it at bible study helps. They said to do whatever feels right and brings you peace. Especially Laura said that if breaking up gives you a sense of peace and what not, it's from God. Anything else that brings confusion and stress isn't from him. So, I already know what the decision is.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fhxPjmSDD9g

I just wanted to put on here that my life in its entirety is pretty interesting. I bet if we all were ourselves in a room somewhere watching a constant video of our lives from the past year with captions of our thoughts, we would be speechless in some way. I wish I could do that. Do you? I think a year would be enough. Or maybe it would be too much. And do you think it would be better to watch the past or the future? Which would you rather watch?